Last week was a crazy stew of hormones, as I had an unwelcome visitor as my period made an unexpected arrival. The water retention was insane. I felt bloated and squishy, fatigued and ravenous.
Thankfully, I stuck to the keto, rode out the hormones, and am back on the downward trend.
In other news, I re-upped my Planet Fitness membership, so I’m ready for my cardio boost. Also, the online dating going is going well. I’ve had a few meet-ups with some guys who seem pretty nice, but there is one who is something totally different. We have a date on Thursday, and I am on tenterhooks with anticipation.
So things are proceeding well. I’ve got a permagrin on my face, and I feel fabulous!
I’ve put off the next weigh-in until next Monday, 5/16. We’ll see where I am then, and again, no judgments, no wallowing in self-loathing, just acceptance and planning on how to do better. To this end, I’ve decided that I need to add exercise as a help for my mood to combat the binging.
I’ve signed up for this 30-Day Bodyweight Challenge from Betty Rocker. It should begin tomorrow. A quick scan of the internet found this video as an excerpt of the 30-day plan:
In addition to that 30-day series of 15-minute bodyweight exercises, I think that I need to join a gym again. I’m thinking of reactivating my membership to Plant Fitness, because their hours are simply the best. I’d get up at 3:30 AM, be there at 4:00 AM, and I’d be back home around 5:00 AM to begin my normal routine of shower, change, breakfast and COFFEE. There is nothing like that feeling of finishing a good hard 45 minutes on the elliptical. I walk out, feeling euphoric. I need that.
In other news, I rejoined a dating site. Scary, but exciting. I need to get back out there. Sometimes I think, maybe I should wait until I’ve got things more together/ after RN school/after I reach my goal weight etc, but then I realized I’m just putting it off needlessly. Why should I defer my chances of meeting someone until some theoretical time in the future which might not come?!
Yesterday was abysmal. Once I got home from work, the binge continued.
Yup. That says it all.
By the end of the day, I was operating in In for a Penny, In for a Pound Continue reading Brand New Day
Welp, I had a bingefest at work this morning. The drug reps brought in a bunch of keto-friendly things, such as pans of bacon, eggs and sausage patties in addition to the fruit and home fries, and I binged on sausage. I attempted to estimate what I ate, and I logged it into MyPlate, and I’ve got my daily calories already. What’s more, I feel sick to my stomach, both physically from eating 8 goddamn sausage patties, and emotionally-mentally from the self-loathing Continue reading Binge
Here is one last thought for the day. I saw this image, and it immediately struck a chord and resonated within me:
When I got on the scale this morning, I was up a half pound from yesterday. I didn’t log everything into my food tracker, and as such, ate “off menu” in the afternoon and evening. My estimated total daily cals yesterday was way over where it should be, and my carbs were too high – I can feel the squishy water weight around my waist like Satan’s inner tube.
1,663 calories?! Sonofabitch.
Continue reading Frustrated
Well, the Fat Fast was a horrible idea. Although the Bulleproof Coffee kept me pretty sated until lunch, my small portion of lunch wasn’t enough to keep my satisfied for long, so I was ravenous by dinnertime. On the second day, all I could think about was MEAT! Also, I woke both nights, quite hungry and had a snack, which I never do. The only times in my life that I woke for a midnight snack was when I was pregnant. So, yeah, I scrapped it. Since then, I’ve overeaten my carbs and my calories, so I am actually UP two pounds.
FUCK. Continue reading On Water Weight and Introspection